Dualities

I shared with a friend this past week that adulthood comes too soon and stays too long…. but with adulthood I came to understand that with blessings come lessons and with lessons come blessings.

We often keep our focus on the obvious blessing or challenge without paying mind to what else comes with it. Health…when it’s challenged it’s so easy to live on the surface with the symptoms. It’s a challenge to dig into the mindful space where the secrets of the illness origination resides. And when you choose to travel there it forces you to own every prior choice; to remember what you once thought was unmemorable. And to link it to your present. How did holding on to a dream that was not destined to be come to effect me now? How does not going after the dream I still believe in effect me now? Did I drink too much back then? Workout too hard? Or not enough?

How was I able to ignore the whispers of guidance that would have altered my path for the positive? Or was this road of challenge the path I needed to take to embrace and value the positive that would arrive through it? That’s the duality that’s always linked to my choices now. Blessings through challenge.

I have learned to honor my body’s needs to rest, to move. I have learned to respect what my body accepts as food and what it doesn’t. But even with this knowing it’s a long journey to regain it’s trust and health. And at the end of the initial journey to a healing remission I’ll be required to continue seeing and connecting to the silver lining that surrounds a balanced and healthy life. Great rest, great energy, a focussed mind, a mobile body. And I already know that in order to do that I’ll be challenged to say no to many offers that would keep me busy and distracted. And I’ll be tested as once I was…. when I failed those tests and found myself on the path that arrived at illness…. Or then again, were those moments my “failing forward” into the life I would have never arrived at without everything of my past?

Philosophical duality…