We have so many lives in our one life. And I’ve lived so many lives not chosen. The ones that chose me. I “waited and watched” for life to present me a path. I gave my power away in daydreaming. When nightmares arrived, I was not awake to decline them.
My taking the action on not acting, choosing the choice of not choosing…. had impact. I believed that what was meant for me would choose me. I didn’t pursue interests and dreams. I didn’t see my power so it was easy to be kept caged by others.
Life events produced trauma responses and dismissal drove it deep within where it rooted into physical illness. When we dismiss our power, we are pushing back against our true self. Fighting against the authority within us. And there inlay auto immunity. When that happened I had to make choices and I had to act. Beginning first to tend to the outward with diet and rest I only made so much progress. I had to go inward as well.. to heal from the outside in and the inside out.
Illness had rooted in and I had to dig beneath the roots. And though there is still much to do, I’ve returned to numerology for insight and self discovery. I’ve learned MBSR (Mind-Body-Spirit-Release) (utilizing my skill of pendulum testing) to navigate the uncovering of knowledge my body holds yet keeps from me. To release blocks and limitations that feed illness and an unfulfilled life. I learned how to send energy healing to myself and to others. I returned to my love of words and began to honor the language I use.
In the midst of my learning and integration I had big health events that needed navigation and I’m still navigating some…. the deeper you dig, the more you uncover. And I understand how many can turn their backs to the work needed to be done. Personal gardening requires commitment. I happen to love nature.
And I’ve reached a time in life where life is changing and becoming a new life to live. I’ve created a business that impacts my body is loving ways. I’ve created. I’ve connected. I’ve essentially tilled the soil and tucked in the delicate seeds…. and now I water… and the “waiting and watching” is different now.. It’s a healthy action. And through it, health will reveal.
My invitation to you is to commune with the inner most quiet of guidance and to live. Live the life of your life today. Take the action of action. Make the choice of choice. Investigate your curiosities. Live your “today life”…. over and over and over….
Inner Calm 