As children we are free flowing and open to our creativity and our interests. Cultural expectations and traditions take us away from following our inner guidance. And we forget the knowing we entered this world with connected to how we’d most powerfully and naturally contribute.
We are taught, at best, to navigate inner passions into an open interest by acclimating it to an acceptable path and agreeable expression. And in the lesser, we are not.
Having moved often as a young girl I was the new kid. I have always been sensitive, kind hearted, empathic and intuitive. I was taught to observe and join versus create. And during that period of life, the understanding of how to set boundaries, and hold my own energetic was unknown. In fact, I was so keenly educated on tuning into others and allowing them comfort that I unlearned how to tune into my self. The powerful emotions I felt were certainly a conglomerate of all the emotions I connected to and never let go of. And that was foundational for attracting life experiences that left deep emotional wounds.
These wounds layered, undressed and unhealed for decades which enabled the creation of more than one autoimmune diagnosis. And that drove me to connect with self. It forced me to.
Initially forcing me to reframe my relationship with rest. As I did, the things that came innately to me and gave me comfort, grew in importance to me. My surroundings with their scents and sensations gave me a place to nest and nurture. It was in my own space that I was safe to connect with the surface level roots of dis-ease and feel my way down them. I leaned into energy work and numerology and began to see how often I had the opportunity to lean in before and was too disconnected to. And I’ve learned to connect to my body and its language.
My most powerful gift is my ability to connect threads to weave a full picture. And in healing all things are involved. Emotional impact, physical impact, intellectual impact, spiritual impact…. all must be addressed to heal.
Am I in full physical remission from auto immune? Not yet. In time.
Am I in full remission from my internal energetic disconnect? Yes.
What autoimmune re-tuned me to was me. And because of this connection to self, I’ve created an outlet to support others in connecting to themselves well before illness sets in. And well in time to have a long lived life connected to their innate gifts & interests.
So today I write the advice to avoid overlooking what is within you. Learn how to expand upon it and avoid illness pushing it aside to make space for its evolution…. instead of yours.
Inner Calm 