Something shifted during this time away from the office. I wasn’t aware of it until I realized I wasn’t sad today…. I feel an opportunity is being held in the promise of tomorrow to stay anchored into my self.

I respond stronger to my inner voice when I’m away from the office. Obligation isn’t present. I’m a better person out of the office. I own the person I am out of the office versus stepping into the “role” I hold while I’m there. And it has me thinking…. about leadership & autoimmunity.

Really powerful and inspirational leaders continue to learn, even in areas they already excel in, maybe are masters of. A leader knows that great knowledge can always be enhanced. And on the hierarchy of knowingness is transferrable knowledge. Truths that can be applied no matter the circumstance. Leaders honor their promises, doing what they say they’d do. And leaders embody who they are in every room they stand in. And that leads my thinking to autoimmunity. Learning compounds on a healing journey and no matter where your focus you cannot help but find your way to self.

Metaphysically, autoimmunity is an internal fight against the self. And what I’ve found is that symptoms lessen/shift as I stand more solidly in the truth of me. That said, I have also become more sensitive to symptoms as I ever greatly align with showing up fully as my self. The moment I step out of a newness of strength, my body calls me out. It forces my honesty and propels me towards self leadership. Where when I promise something to my self, I’m good on my promise.

Alignment is a muscle memory… you have to find the right move, and practice it. In time, it anchors in and becomes an easy lift. Until then though, it’s focus and mindfulness that do the lifting. Being one woman at home and another at the office is a great example of fighting against the self…. auto immunity. And it does nothing to strengthen the energetic muscle of standing in the strength of me. Sprinkles on top of vanilla ice-cream don’t change the flavor. And only allowing little glimmers (sprinkles) of the woman I am at home while at the office isn’t enough.

And my reflection on this final day of my time out of the office is that it’s important I show up as who I am in every room I enter. It’s important that when I walk out of the door of my sanctuary, I do not put on the costume of the position I hold in the office. That position is not who I am, it’s simply something I get paid to do. And one day, the thing I get paid to do will be in deep alignment with who I am…. the spiritual, language minded, holistically centered, energy honoring healer I’ve come to know myself to be. Until then, I must take the soul of me into the office. End the struggle of being two women and stand in the truth of the one woman I am. Because healing happens on many levels. And becoming self led will lead me to exciting places.

How are you anchoring into you? How are you becoming unified in your presence of self?

Decades ago I was introduced to affirmations. We all were. And we continue to be. I love a good affirmation…. it can be a method of spiritual bypassing though, and that undermines your healing. It undermines true inner calm, which you know is my purpose.

Early affirmation work for “mindset” merely had us writing an affirmation/goal/intention over and over until the pen ran dry. It had us repeat it over and over in the mirror looking ourself in the eye well past the moment we felt like a weirdo for doing it. “Fake it until you make it” vibes….It shifted our attention and when we shifted enough, we found ourselves consciously convinced that we had a new thought or belief. We thought we “fixed”/ “healed”/ “corrected” the issue/event that drove us to affirmations. Thing is, I don’t believe it did.

Affirmations can be a distraction energy. A diversion. It has us look over here so we don’t address what’s going on over there. And that is how we come to the layered nuances of shadow work. Those moments we affirmed out of our immediate thought pattern were never processed. And so they sit within the cells of our body yearning to be seen….in those shadows, where dis-ease roots in and breeds.

With Mind-Body-Spirit-Release the healing is based upon intention, which is truly a prayerful affirmation we want to be held true. I test the stress response to it and clear the stress… that stress is a layer. It’s a layer of energetic muscle memory that is subconsciously woven into every hour of our life that holds us back. Somehow, some way….

And this lifting of stress allows you to move energetically closer to your intention. And this is where mindset becomes a powerful tool for genuine healing.

When you become aware of blocks, and release the blocks, you are able to sit within the emotion your affirmation brings to the surface. And combining the words and the emotions is where the transformation is. This combination of “feeling as if” creates new energetic pathways that then send the signal out that you are a match for something truly different, and upgraded. It’s quantum physics. And there is nothing “fake” about it.

Do you remember how it felt to be exited for something you knew was “on it’s way”… a relaxing vacation or living in a new home you closed on or a party… You had a visual of it, and a powerful feeling connected to it. You were not “faking” anything.. you were experiencing a state of “when it’s happening… “.. the “as if” energy.

If you are on a healing journey of any sort… the path to healing, is through feeling… reimagining and connecting to the emotion of that reimagined state.

And if you’d like to see the shifts swiftly…. use the science of brainwaves… Our minds are most pliable just upon waking and just before sleep. Take that time for you.

Something you should know about me is that I see all things as interconnected. In ways most don’t. I can be very esoteric. Keep this in mind as you read…..

From a metaphysical perspective, autoimmunity is about pushing back on authority… and since it’s “within the self” I have always related it to internal conflict. Dis-resonance.

The deeper I go into my spirituality, into utilizing my energetic gifts & understanding how both abundance & scarcity sneak into our lives through the small cracks we deem as insignificant, the more I realize how auto immunity is not just about “pushing back” on our own authority; it’s about the “disregard” of that authority. And the disregard of what many would call intuitive hits or guidance.

Autoimmunity, for me, shows me where the shadows are that need light to be shined on them. The largest of which for me is a fear of being seen in the expression of my highest & best self. What if my light is so bright that others may see their own as dim?…. That’s been the reason behind my many taken opportunities to dull down my talents/interests/innate skills and learned accomplishments alike. Behind the curtain, I’m still good at all these…I just avoid advertising it. I’ve never wanted to be a reason anyone could think less of themselves. I cannot take responsibility for others choices of perception though. This I know. And I realize this may sound as though I’ve got quite an ego… I don’t. There have certainly been times when I exuded an arrogance in regard to self… though I cannot say that arrogance was rooted in confidence. Because it wasn’t.

Nowadays, I have confidence in what I’m good at. I am comfortable knowing I am in my element supporting others. And I am comfortable setting the boundaries that ensure I have the energetic capacity to do so. What I’m still uncomfortable with is leaning into the life that career path might well provide. And so the business I created in order to support others and create a life of personal flow, is stagnant.

At a deep level, I connect entrepreneurship to the “starving artist” and “healers path”. Classic scarcity perception. Do what you love and you’ll never make a living. Untrue. There are actually examples that contradict this everywhere I look. Connections I’ve made in the past few years show me that doing what you love is actually the best path, the most abundant path to take…. The core belief was long since made though and it’s a shadow I must overcome. Would those “paths of scarcity” stop me from extending my healing support to others and self? No. I have a business that is rooted in energetic healing support that is not supplementing the income I make elsewhere. And I take time to provide healing support to me as well. Clearly, I’ll do what I love and what I’m good at regardless. Personal challenges of releasing limiting beliefs do not impede my ability to help others… it only limits me from growing a business where I can help more people.

And I’ve realized I also connected that an onslaught of abundance feels “unsafe” to my nervous system. Having had emotionally abusive relationships that began with “love-bombing” & initially led me to believe that “all my hopes were coming true”. when I recently was thinking on the life I desire to create, the move closer to family I look forward to, I found myself thinking of the abundance it will take to manifest it all & I heard myself reminding me of a quote I long ago heard..”beware the man who sweeps you off your feet because that’s the man who doesn’t want you stable”… Windfalls of blessings can feel like you are being swept off your feet…and my soul has the core belief that THAT is an unsafe space to stand in. Are you beginning to see the connection of auto immunity to scarcity and limitation?

So here I am, epiphanies pressing up against my heart, knowing that I’m being shown the signs that it’s time. Stop disregarding the voice within. Start showing the universe that I am bearing witness to the signs, hearing the whispers and respect them all enough to lean into the action they are pointing me to. When I do, clients will connect, my body will begin to un-learn that expansion is unsafe/unstable & the symptoms of autoimmunity will cease because the internal conflict will no longer be present. Fighting is not required where there is no war.

And as this may not be the truth of many; that aligned & resonate action will relieve physical dis-ease, and allow my business to launch and flourish and gift me the reward of supporting others as I am called to do…. it’s my truth.

What I challenge you to ponder is this…What do hear within your heart that you’re pretending not to? Where are you not honoring your intuition? What might you fear is behind the curtain of your dreams? And how might these be impacting you physically, emotionally, spiritually, financially?

Are there Big T and Little T traumas? Or is trauma, trauma? And how does trauma relate to illness?

To answer this, it’s important to understand that “trauma” is not an event itself. Trauma is the post event processing state where your body holds the memory of an event as stress and this results in an ongoing state of flight/fight/freeze/fawn.

Knowing that the event itself is not the trauma explains how two people can share an experience of a significant vehicle accident and one moves on as though it never happened and the other is afraid to get behind the wheel again or isn’t able to do so without anxiety. We process events differently. Between people and within ourselves. And this is where Big T and Little T both have their impact.

Big T trauma traditionally, can be the emotional, and in turn physiological response of physical assault, loss, injury from an accident…all of those traditionally thought of BIG events that would “traumatize” a person. Little T trauma are the events we often disregard and consider insignificant such as an emotional trigger that is “turned on” as a deep response to a Big T where it may appear we are “over-reacting” to a situation, or it can be the layered impact of subtle and ongoing situations…. A relationship that isn’t supportive of your nervous system; one in which you “walk on eggshells” or fully adapt who you are in order to maintain peace (fawning). It can be the job you see no strife within though are not happy doing it. It can be chronic illness with its’ many impacts on well-being.

We’ve all heard the phrase that something was the “straw that broke the camels back”. This is how I see the Little T’s. Alone, they can be moved through. When disregarded or not felt through fully in order to release, they become a layer of the sheer muslin that can over time become a heavy “dis”-comforter.

I’ve experienced them all. I’ve endured and ended an emotionally abusive marriage. I’ve been bullied at more than one point in life from pre-teen to adulthood, targeted by children and adults. I’ve been groomed and assaulted. I’ve continued in a job that drains me…. one not resonant with the core of who I am. I’ve accumulated auto immune diagnosis and have dealt with physical pain, unresolved weight gain, hair loss, anxiety, sleeplessness, depression, emotional numbness, unworthiness and despair. My body holds it all. And there in lies trauma healing.

The auto immune diagnosis are correlated to the larger trauma impacts in my life and each individual diagnosis launched in a time of deep trigger. The first when I went against my internal guidance and married a man I shouldn’t have. This linked to a previous time of grooming when my instincts were not honored. The second, in a time when I was experiencing bullying on two fronts (at the place of employment and at the place of study). this linked to many previous events of bullying.

Metaphysically, illness can be related to events and states of being. Trauma healing is about releasing those trapped emotions by waking them from a dormant state for experience and release, or engaging with an already active stressor to release and resolve. With autoimmune, there is a battle within… the body, the self, in continual conflict with itself. And when we are in conflict with ourself, it’s often pervasive yet subtle.

Healing is layered. first you scab over, then you heal within and the scab is needed no longer.

Emotional healing, how we can feel we’ve fully processed something only to have it return, can be frustrating and seemingly endless. Some traumas have such depth that we must heal the aspects of them as we evolve and mature into the capability of handling & processing the “next layer”. And once we have any experience, we are changed. for the better or for the worse. It becomes part of us and we then see the world through lenses that have that moment imbued within it.

An example of this is how you may experience infidelity and have trust issues with those you connect with afterward when there would be no substantiated reason for you to have concern. You innately observe behaviors and link them to those that appear similar and categorize them. Good/Bad/trustworthy or not. Something such as at one time receiving flowers was endearing, you then learned each time you received them it was after an event of infidelity…. and now when you receive flowers you wonder what happened that you might be hurt by. You don’t trust the kindness. This is a stressor. It disables the rest and digest aspect of our nervous system, the parasympathetic nervous system. And when that is disabled healing is hindered. And dis-ease can manifest where once there was none. It’s the Little T energetic that undermines the PS NS in an ongoing manner that can result in illness that may appear “mysterious” when it’s not. Emotional distress is powerful whether it appears subtle or bold.

Threads run through the events of our lives and as we heal, we continue living. And this often makes emotional and physical healing a marathon.

So do I think trauma and illness are related? Without doubt. Is there is a difference between Big T and Little T trauma? Only that the first is obvious enough that we may be quicker to tend to healing from it, through it & that the Little T have more nuance. That’s it.

Both impact health, & well-being. Both have the ability to connect us or disconnect us to our faith, and internal guidance. Both have the ability to prompt us to pivot into better, healthier directions. Both have the ability to stop us in our tracks. Both have the ability to move us towards illness or health.

If you are on a healing journey. Know that it’s called that for a reason. It’s not a quick trip…. Look into somatic therapy for its roots in body-mind connection. Remain conscious and aware of your reactions to know if you are leaning towards the betterment of your path or not. Know that a lot of healing is a process of making mistakes and then learning what’s better. When you know better, do better. And give yourself grace along the way.

Healing is not linear. This is true. And we often feel that we heal forward and then take steps back… That perspective undermines our efforts. You didn’t take steps back… you’re just in a circle back. An edit. A revision. Those happen with all the great stories.

It’s important to honor our prior healing & progress. To know that the “setback” is the universe handing you a shovel to dig deep because healing requires a multitude of angles to be addressed and perceptions to shift to successfully connect the event or period of time to others for full understanding of the impact it had. When you dig, you hit roots. Roots intertwine and serve as a communication channel that links all the knowledge within.

I realize that we often begin healing from the physical. We experience an injury, we get the diagnosis. And as we look around the life we live we see symptoms everywhere. Symptoms we long to disappear. If we are open to it, we begin to see the physical as it relates to the emotional. That depth of connective healing is where the magic is.

Trees have more than one root.

Stories have more than one line.

Lives have more than one moment.

How deep are your roots? How rich is your story? How many moments can you find connection between?

Just prompts for thought….

I’ve been thinking a lot about these definitions. I recently experienced an overwhelming interaction that froze me in a trauma response. I had initiated the interaction from the place of exhaustion. At a time I felt up against the wall to tie a bow on an issue. I was left in a puddle of sobbing, ugly cry tears. A response from another persons words. It took me days to move through it. And I’m still laying foundations to save me from a repeat. In my personal thoughts, my ruminating, defending my actions and begging those that triggered me to “consider the source”…. Consider. Consider. That word hung in my mind….. I had, in a way very out of character, initiated this event that broke me open. I knew that if tables were turned and I had been on the receiving end; my irritation would have been set aside. My knowing the person had no habit of this behavior would have told me that something was at play that really mattered to them. And I would have shown up, willing to support. And that did not happen to me. I was not considered. I’ll say that again. I was not considered. What truth did that reveal? There was a deep need in me to know. I kept hearing me say it..”I was not considered”.

And I know things happen “for us” and not “to” us… and I’ve made the shift into appreciation. I know what I’ve gained and what I’ll forever carry with me because of this hurtful moment. That’s all beside the point. It was the event itself that pushed me to ponder….in order to gain the wisdom. Was I respected? Or was I only valued? Is there a difference between them?

And as a lover of words, language, and the personal interpretation of them, personal connection to them, I wondered if they were a package deal, value & respect. I’ve decided they aren’t.

Value relates to an appreciation of something…

We value our vehicle as it provides us freedom. We value time off as it relieves us our obligations. We value an employee with a good work ethic because we know we’ll not have to drain our own energy keeping them motivated and will get to channel all that time into our own task list… See where I’m headed? Value GIVES US something. Whereas Respect…

Respect requires we “consider” another. We may gain something from the consideration. Odds are, it’s the other person who stands the most to gain. When “respect”-full consideration leads, value follows. Your reaction would show the value you hold…..

Often we make an assumption that since we are certain of our value to others, that we are innately respected. Often we are wrong to do so. This I have now learned.

With three decades of workforce history and a strong work ethic I’m often the one disregarded. Nobody sees a need to motivate me, follow up with me, “deal” with me. I’m self sufficient. Self motivating. Self- disciplining. A valued and valuable key player and invisible all at once.

And once I thought on this a while I expanded my curiosity about how this can play out within our relationship to our self.

What do I value about me? And how to I back that up in my actions? I value health… which leads me to eat quality foods & hydrate. I value mental health …. which leads me to rest, retreat and recover & meditate. My personal self gains from my seeing it’s value. And how do I show my self that I respect me? When I have demands and obligations to others and my body (mentally or emotionally or physically) has run out of steam; do I consider its needs? Do I walk away knowing the list will wait? Are my actions respect-full?

I deeply believe the universe watches for our alignment. If we say we matter and choose not to back that up with actions, what else will we ask for saying it “matters so much to have” that we will also disregard? Shouldn’t we expect those wants to delay arrival until they know they’ll be valued and respected? I know I certainly don’t jump into action for anyone I know will blow off or disregard my support.

So I challenge you to ponder….. How are you taking actions (& showing respectful considerations) that align with what you value?

I rarely say this anymore. I had a shift when it comes to this word. I heard someone say that when you say it, all that came immediately before it is cancelled out. Wait. What? Noooooo… that word is simply a verbal comma in a thought process. Isn’t it?

Someone invites you to a dinner party and your immediate reply is that “I’ve love to. But I still have so much to do that I’m going to have to pass.” Is that the truth? Would you really “love” to go to that dinner? I expect it was a sugar coated no. I bet you actually prefer to get all the “things” done. I bet you really are preferring to invest your time elsewhere… other than that dinner party. What’s the harm in simply saying no? How did we come to the point where culturally we say yes before no? Is it a surprise that have such a depth of miscommunication?

I have spoken about this before and I’ve noticed that eliminating “but” has become rather standard for me. Sure it slips from time to time when I use a predictable/common phrase… I’ve found though that I catch myself, regroup and rephrase. I feel better aligned.

And I know that when something becomes second nature, we’ve acclimated to its resonance. Truth is a lovely state to resonate with.

How often do you operate in contrast?

Manifestation requires alignment. And we manifest more of what we wish we didn’t that what we wish to. Inhospitable schedules. Poor relationships. Poor health. Dis-ease. I know I recently wrote about watching words but as a follow up, alignment has to be put on the table. Changing your manner of speech is exhausting. The level of thought and awareness that go into it…. I had no idea the shift would be as demanding as I’ve come to know it to be.

When you think of contrast.. dis-resonance… opposites.. think as well of little lies. “I’d love to but… I’ll have to take a raincheck because I’ve got plans for….”. It was recently brought to my awareness that the word “but” within a statement, cancels out all that came before it. Having deep cultural programming that utilizes that word to soften a denial I did not believe that what came before it was untrue. I believed that it was a truth that had to be delayed…. I paid attention to how often I said it and then I began to question if what I said before it was true or not… and surprisingly it never was! Little lies… mis-alignments … So I stopped. And those around me have the pleasure of watching my re-programming live. “I’d love to mentor more often but the demands on me don’t allow much time for that.” Do I really want to mentor more? No. A quick regroup and restate… “Actually, let me rephrase that… I have enjoyed mentoring and generally am up for it. Right now though, I’m dedicated to the current demands on my calendar.” All true.

Truth supports our nervous system as well. I would expect that misalignment triggers cortisol… and goodness knows we have enough triggers for that without adding to it ourselves.

And what I noticed when I began to eliminate those little lies, was the opportunity to live in ever greater truth. Children are spectacular at living their alignment… They are hungry or aren’t. They like that game or they don’t. They like that other kiddo or they don’t. No shame in their truth. How does that get conditioned out of us? I’m conditioning back into me…. into it’s no longer exhausting.. For now though, like those freely truth telling little ones, I can now see the benefit of a daily nap.

Mother Theresa once said she’d never protest against war but if there was a walk for peace she’d be there. Hearing this was the first time I recognized the seemingly small but truly enormous shift of perspective that is the difference between force and genuine power.

It takes a lot to shift a perspective because it’s typically birthed from moments of irritation, upset, anger, overwhelm, despair. These moments blind us with visions and deafen us with our stories of how much we “don’t want” this/that. We can get lost in the winding energy of distaste and simmer in that state for days/weeks/years.. decades.

It’s easy to recognize what we don’t want. And you’d think it’d be easy to then flip that on end to see what we do; but it’s not. Maybe it’s the energy of negativity or maybe it’s that we aren’t shown how to shift into awareness. Negativity doesn’t often have to be thought about to be known. But our meaningful wants require our thoughtfulness to be coaxed out into the open.

Ever been in a season of life and know that it was not where you needed to be, but you didn’t know where you were supposed to go? That’s your inner witness saying….. “time to go inward, look inward”.

You have likely heard the phrase that “what you think about you bring about” and “what you resist persists” but if you haven’t, I’m glad you now have. Because it’s critical that you know what you are working towards and healing towards. If you are wanting to leave the job, is it because you really don’t like the actual work? Or is it because the job you’d otherwise enjoy, is having to be done in a chaotic space? Is it an environmental energetic that undermines being able to relax and concentrate? Are you forced to put your needs behind the needs of everyone else? Or do you really feel the need to make a different impact in the world that your job will never allow? Figuring out the circumstances and the reality shift you really desire is the foundation for reaching the state you crave.

I made this connection a while back and as I allowed myself the freedom to surrender into the development of a new business I did so knowing that I was comfortable with however the path would wind into it becoming my sole career. I intentionally began to insightfully move my way through blocks to healing while in a job that doesn’t light me up. Blocks to building a business in my side time because I knew that what I really wanted to do was to support and guide others into their highest and best self. And I knew that I was taking first steps to removing the “hustle” from my life and replacing it with “flow”. I knew that I wanted to have greater control over the energy that I connected with during my day. I knew that I wanted to work in an environment that was calming to me, that was uncluttered and “light”. I was clear that I am better when there is less on my plate. Can I handle split attention tasking? Sure. Am I good and juggling the energetics of a lot of personalities at every turn? Generally, yes. But do I enjoy either? No.

I shifted. My focus was not on “no longer having a job where I had to deal with whoever presented themselves to me that day”, ugly vibe or not. My focus was not on finding a way of making an income where I didn’t have to play the sugar coated professional correctness game, where I had to suck it up and let people question my character and berate me because I was just a “worker”…. Nope. My focus became to create a career where I had choice in who I worked with. One where I was fulfilled in my service to others, where my heart was seen and valued. One where I helped support the moving of the needle and one where I could also shift the priority to me when I needed it; allow myself rest when my body speaks its need.

And what happened? My aesthetically outdated office that had been long weighed down by clutter and had succumbed to disorganization and dust began to transition into a higher and better version…. Has it been messy? You bet! Purging typically is. And it’s not yet finished…But the new carpet has grounded the space, the new paint dissolved the distractions of un-repaired anchor holes and scratches and dings; the new drapes allowed your eye to rise to the 20’+ ceilings. Desks & cabinets were cleaned out and most of what had been in them, never returned. All that had worth but no use was donated. Only the necessary will remain. And not only is the eye traveling with ease, I can physically move within the uncluttered space with greater efficiency. And by divine coincidence I’ve uncovered more efficient ways to complete the tasks that define my calendar. Uncluttered time. Does this change the job into what I love to do? No. But the universe saw my aligned actions outside of those walls and had it’s aha moment… “She IS serious about shifting… she IS taking steps to create the most nurturing employment circumstance… lets help her”.

So now, I’ll have an environment that on two specific levels, serves me best. Organization (which is a lightness I feel & need whether I visually see it or not) and an aesthetically grounded space. Having these two foundational traits in the space allows my body to sigh. Calm is my intent with everything…. and now, because I got clear on what I wanted and acted in accordance with that clarity, the universal energetics is supporting the creation of more of that in my life.

So, what do you want? And how can you make it known to the subtle energies?

I operate best when there is less on my plate. That doesn’t mean that I cannot enjoy having a lot going on. At times I do. But my environment needs calm. Because of this, I’ve been one to handle the “to do” in full before I relax. This character trait also resulted in my developing the ability to delay eating… until the laundry was washing, the bathroom was clean, the clutter was picked up, pots and pans were in soak, the stovetop wiped down… I enjoyed my meal more when it was the only thing “on my plate”.

Over time, coupled with the conditioning of eating “three square meals per day” and add to that only eating “when hungry” and then my focus on avoiding “emotional eating” …. I disconnected from my hunger.

Hunger cues are critical. Lets think about this from a broad perspective… Hunger from the lack of physical nutrition… Hunger for your hopes and goals….going unsatisfied.

Over the years I grew disconnected from those hopes and goals as I disconnected from physical hunger. They were there, & I had countless moments that reminded me of a need, like a tummy growl calls for food. But I didn’t stop to answer. What does that affirm to my body? To the universe? It affirms that delay is something I’m comfortable with. And for many reasons that must shift.

I have laid the foundation for my business and am now working through what holds me back from giving it life. A healthy life for it and for me in partnership with it. And I’ve learned that even with my foundation of nutrient dense eating, I under eat. After years of healing emotional trauma and auto immune states, my body is still in constant stress from the lack of calories (no wonder that weight clings on). And with my business residing in secret…. just another alignment with delayed gratification.

How I am approaching making this shift?

I’m eating often…. I’m not at a point, as I begin, to have three full meals and three snacks.. without connection to hunger, I easily feel I’ve eaten enough even though I haven’t. But I can make smaller meals and have them every few hours. This shows my body that it can count on my providing it nutrients. It doesn’t need to have fear or anxiety and it can let go…. no longer hoarding weight as safety & protection. I’m taking my temperature before I eat and 30 minutes after to see if the number goes up or down… When it goes down, it’s evidence that the food provided a stress release from the body. Sounds like a good thing but it’s not. If your body experiences a stress relief…it’s under stress! Your temperature should go up after eating because it’s fuel that needs to burn…And as I begin, my temperature, which is notoriously low, goes down after meals. A body needs to feel safe to heal and nutrients are the way to nurture your body.

I know that this shift of eating will lead into business actions. It’s transferrable knowledge. I’ll figure out how to take my temperature with it as well… see what actions activate the fire. Shift from thinking I have to execute the big moves (like eating a big meal) and instead prepare “snacks”… small actions that show my business that I’m committing to partnering with it, nurturing it. And a business feeds off actions as the body feeds off food.

Nutrition… it is the foundation of nurture.