Tag: healing

And so I pivot

It’s been shifting, like a huge ship, behind the scenes for some time.

I began this blog about a decade ago and have posted less than 50 times. Something never connected. I’m not ready to abandon ship though. I’m just revising its direction.

Although I began this blog as a journey through auto immunity, I’ve expanded my connection with that “identity”.

Auto immunity is the disruptor of inner calm. And calm is my lighthouse. I see calm as the power underneath self knowing. Under self compassion and self empowerment. Calm is found within alignment.

In this past decade I’ve put many parts of me into remission & in doing so, I have reconnected with the essence of me. Finally. I’ve edited so much into alignment.

It has been challenging and heart opening. Battling yourself is not for the weak or uncommitted.

The physicality of auto immunity is simply evidence of long term misalignment, disconnection and denial of self. And when you decide you are intent on remission, what you are really saying is you are intent on reconnecting, listening & honoring the fullness of you. And you are intent on expressing it. Remission = Alignment.

I’ve developed and finely tuned my language of numbers. I’ve opened & embraced my intuitive gifts. I speak regularly with my ancestors, and with nature. I’ve accrued certifications that have given me strength and tangible tools to express the innate gifts I’ve finally embraced. Because those gifts are the essence of me.

And having this genuine connection to me has led me to the edge of a new chapter.

I wake up wanting to share numerology with as many people as I can. To introduce them to themselves and the language that has become my primary language. I want to support others in letting go of the subconscious blacks that have the power to hold them back from the lives they are committed to manifesting. These tools have healed so much in me and have healed me forward. How could I ever not do all I can to share it with as many others as I can?

So here I am, embracing the pivot. And as I turn, I hope to see you… and I hope to support you in seeing you too.

With much love to you….

We create the foundation…

It’s never a celebratory moment when we realize, and have to then fully admit, that the choices we made created an ideal foundation for chronic illness.

It is said that once you know the truth, you can’t ignore it. I disagree. Because I ignored it.

It is also said that once you make a decision, you have to act. I disagree. Because I didn’t act.

Our body announces truth. It’s our job to listen and to act on its guidance. Far too often we don’t. When we go against our body, which IS our inner guidance it’s bound to speak louder to be heard.

Autoimmunity is when the body attacks itself. It no longer can make a successful judgement call between what is an “invader” and what isn’t.

Have you ever been in a relationship where you weren’t heard? And one where periodically action was taken that made you feel seen? This is exactly what happens when we ignore the signs our body is showing us. This is exactly what happens when we take a step or two in the direction our body points us to and then we don’t follow through. Even if we don’t leave the relationship, we’ll withhold our trust in it. Autoimmunity.

I have three autoimmune diagnosis. Each one aligns with a season I took no action when I should have. Each one has also guided me in the direction of my healing. And I’ve been tending to those wounds for some time.

I did the band-aide method; akin to ignoring the bigger injury. I did the RX; akin to going to couples therapy. And then I began the inner work; akin to going to a couples rehab.

We have to do the work the heals. Nutrition adjusted, holistic support has replaced RX. Numerology, Mind body Spirit Release clearing, Ahai energy balancing…. all bring to light perspectives and insights that need to be seen, heard and healed. I’m in the final stages of recreating health. And through it I’m finding a strength in my relationship to self that I’ve never had before. This marriage is gonna go the distance. 🙂