The emotional impact on health is underrated unless you are in the social bubble I occupy. When I began this ‘lil blog I thought I was headed in the direction of Nutritional practitioner or Integrative Health Practitioner. I thought I’d end up sharing all sorts of nuggets of biohacking and health….and the content is fascinating… I’ll forever be a learner. But I was dragging my feet and was blinded by my desire for a new direction that I wasn’t seeing the reason behind my lollygagging. But I leaned in hard to a community of personal growth and realized that although I’d continue to support myself with nutrient dense food and electrolytes and I’d still use my red light and use my “do no disturb”, and get massages and take epsom baths and leave work at work… I saw it was time to really dig in deep to my energetic health.
I’m not speaking about sleep quality or even mental health, although energetic deficits DO lead to dis-ease on many fronts. I’m speaking about genuine energetic health. Where am I placing my energy? What am I taking on that isn’t mine? What am I holding onto that no longer serves me? And if it didn’t serve me, did it ever? And if it never did, what in me decided to latch onto it? Do I still have that co-dependent undermining energetic pattern in me? Did I have blocks that I wasn’t aware of that were holding me in a pattern of limitation? Are these maybe behind the weight still holding on? The reason a new career path was not revealing its passionate self to me? I had to take time to study me.
So what did I find? My real abundance was in scarcity….Scarcity of time, joy, validation….health that even though ever better is not lifted to a level that gave me what I yearned for… freedom of movement and ease of expression. I realized the scarcity of pleasure and interest… of connection and engagement. In that discovery I realized I needed to shift into abundance. How am I doing this? I’m doing more of what I love. I’m speaking up instead of sucking it up. And I’m leaning hard into quiet grounding. I am discovering how to embody my self. And embodiment leads to respect and trust and those lead to love…and lack cannot reside where love does.
Am I seeing health shifts? I know I’m more tuned in to imbalance… and that helps me self support. But I am feeling the internal shift of feeling true to myself. And in the end, my health slowed me down to a stop…. it taught me to rest and tune in. And my weight kept me hidden in every way… I drew in my personality, my uniqueness, my voice… I blended in… and dulled myself down. That’s unhealthy. So yes, speaking up when I should, walking out when I need, listening to only what inspires me and leads me to self…. I am seeing better health…. I am seeing shifts in the health that matters most. Energetic health.
And do I have a journey to journey still? Yep. But now I’m on it.
Inner Calm 