Anchoring in

Something shifted during this time away from the office. I wasn’t aware of it until I realized I wasn’t sad today…. I feel an opportunity is being held in the promise of tomorrow to stay anchored into my self.

I respond stronger to my inner voice when I’m away from the office. Obligation isn’t present. I’m a better person out of the office. I own the person I am out of the office versus stepping into the “role” I hold while I’m there. And it has me thinking…. about leadership & autoimmunity.

Really powerful and inspirational leaders continue to learn, even in areas they already excel in, maybe are masters of. A leader knows that great knowledge can always be enhanced. And on the hierarchy of knowingness is transferrable knowledge. Truths that can be applied no matter the circumstance. Leaders honor their promises, doing what they say they’d do. And leaders embody who they are in every room they stand in. And that leads my thinking to autoimmunity. Learning compounds on a healing journey and no matter where your focus you cannot help but find your way to self.

Metaphysically, autoimmunity is an internal fight against the self. And what I’ve found is that symptoms lessen/shift as I stand more solidly in the truth of me. That said, I have also become more sensitive to symptoms as I ever greatly align with showing up fully as my self. The moment I step out of a newness of strength, my body calls me out. It forces my honesty and propels me towards self leadership. Where when I promise something to my self, I’m good on my promise.

Alignment is a muscle memory… you have to find the right move, and practice it. In time, it anchors in and becomes an easy lift. Until then though, it’s focus and mindfulness that do the lifting. Being one woman at home and another at the office is a great example of fighting against the self…. auto immunity. And it does nothing to strengthen the energetic muscle of standing in the strength of me. Sprinkles on top of vanilla ice-cream don’t change the flavor. And only allowing little glimmers (sprinkles) of the woman I am at home while at the office isn’t enough.

And my reflection on this final day of my time out of the office is that it’s important I show up as who I am in every room I enter. It’s important that when I walk out of the door of my sanctuary, I do not put on the costume of the position I hold in the office. That position is not who I am, it’s simply something I get paid to do. And one day, the thing I get paid to do will be in deep alignment with who I am…. the spiritual, language minded, holistically centered, energy honoring healer I’ve come to know myself to be. Until then, I must take the soul of me into the office. End the struggle of being two women and stand in the truth of the one woman I am. Because healing happens on many levels. And becoming self led will lead me to exciting places.

How are you anchoring into you? How are you becoming unified in your presence of self?